I'm back for a post.  I figured I'd get more feedback here than I would on blogger. 

So Mark and I are sort of at a life intersection and don't really know what to do.  We can

a.  keep working here and save money while there still is work and then buy some land or go in on some land with others and build a house and start a life that we feel matches our convictions in regards to earth friendly living, good stewardship, organic food etc... or
b. buy a house here now so that we have a place to settle and maybe foster some kids.  We could foster while we rent though so I suppose that shouldn't be a deciding factor.  There is a cute little house here for sale that seems to be calling my name.

The issue I'm having is this.  I feel like we'd be buying a house to be safe and to hide from the uncertainty of the life we really would love to lead.  Do people actually do crazy things like we are thinking of doing?  Would we be alone?  What are the logistics of making it happen?  Is it actually  possible for Mark to do the things he is passionate about (building sustainable homes, making quality wooden toys, furniture, etc...) and still feed his family (aka. us).  Will the government even let us adopt or foster the children I have a heart for if they don't have their 1800 square feet of wasted living space?  This life is all of the sudden feeling so short and my throat gets tight at the idea of wasting it on false security.  I guess what I'm most scared of is that if we actually follow through, I will find myself much more materialistic than I think I am. 

Are we crazy.  Because every one is talking, but if WE do it will we be the only ones?

Hmmm... just a couple of thoughts.

• We are going to Tofino this weekend!  Yay for sandy ocean beaches!  I'll take lots of pictures to post when we get back.
  
• I just recently reread "Mere Christianity"  and "The Problem of Pain" .  They always revitalize my soul and make me see my sin in it's awfulness and need for Jesus to give me any resemblance of good.
  
• I`m finally seeing the scale go down after running for 4 months!  Three pounds down 13 to go.  I`m feeling like I`m in good shape though so that`s really what I`m after (and maybe to fit into my pre-Anna Kate jeans again :)
• I`m becoming pretty hardcore ``green``  Maybe it`s just living here that does it but I don`t think so.  I have to be the change that I want to see in this world.  I honestly believe that God doesn`t want us destroying his beautiful creation all for the sake of consumerism.  I also don`t believe that he wants us to obsess about it or lose sight of the souls of our neighbors because of it but I do think that where the option exists to live greener, I should be chosing it.  A little more money maybe but not as much as you think.  And a note out to everyone... Please consider not slathering yourself in petroleum products... they are really not good for you. 
  
• Alberta is 5 months old today and so incredibly cute and sweet.  She rocks and rocks on her hands and knees but just can`t quite figure out how to move her limbs yet.  Almost though. 
  
• The blackberries are coming soon and I`m going to make Jam this year!

That`s it.  I can`t think of anything else. 


Oh, check out my new antique fan.  It works great but has the possibility of chopping off fingers so it has to stay up high.  :)